What if she was important enough to him? Perhaps then he wouldn't have chased after Vera and sent her to the hospital. After all, she was already heavily pregnant at that time. Wasn't he afraid that something might have happened to her when he left her alone? Olivia knew she was being stubborn and trying to pick bones from eggs.
She could ignore many things that had happened in the past and even look past them. She even told Sam that she was willing to wait for him.
However, she could not look past it and lie to herself that time.
She did not want to deceive herself anymore. She should just accept the fact open-heartedly that Sam didn't like her.
Humans had to wake up from the lie they told themselves eventually.
Olivia laughed at herself and said softly as she thought of that, "I know you two are innocent. You don't have to explain too much to me." She was feeling exhausted, especially right after giving birth to a child. She wanted to close her eyes, not having to listen or think about anything.
Sam could tell that she was tired. He knew that he shouldn't have brought it up at such a time.
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtYet, he panicked. He kept thinking that he might lose something if he did not attempt to explain the situation. Hence, he had to clarify the matter.
"Ollie, I actually told you about it the night I cback, but you fell asleep so you didn't hear me." She paused as he said that, and she opened her eyes to look at him with a serious gaze.
"Did you tellthat night?" "Yes." He nodded. "I would never hide it from you. I mean it when I say that I have no feelings for her anymore. Was this the reason why you were emotional during the past few days?" Olivia smiled sadly. "You guessed it?" Sam's heart clenched as he didn't expect that her mood indeed had something to do with the matter. He was glad that he decided to bring it up again or the consequences might be even worse. A pained expression appeared on his face, as if he was in disbelief. "So, the things you have said before, and the stuff you bought for the child..." "Yes." She did not even attempt to deny. "You didn't tellthe truth. I asked you twice yet you still did not tell. I feel like a fool in our marriage. Sam, I got tired of trying and assuming things on my own." She took a deep breath and continued calmly, "I am planning to leave after giving birth. Perhaps our decision to get together and get married in the beginning was too rash. It might be good for us to have stapart." "No." He gritted his teeth and held her hand tightly. "Don't talk nonsense. I have never thought that our marriage was a rash decision. Even if you felt that way, I didn't. I have always been sincere since the start of our relationship!" She knew that Sam has always been serious about their relationship. That was the reason why she was willing to stay in the relationship back then. Moreover, she fell for him first. That was why she was willing to give him tto change his feelings about her.
However, the deeper she fell for him, she realized that a lot of things were different from what she had expected in the beginning.
For example, the more she liked Sam, the more she wanted him to be like her.
She wanted him to love her as much as she loved him.
She becpetty and didn't want him to look at other women. It was fine if it was just any other women, but it couldn't be Vera. Although Vera was already a good friend of hers then, it did not mean that she would be able to accept that.
"Ollie, did you listen to what I said?" She smiled and said softly, "Yes, but I'm tired now. Can I get ssleep first?" Sam was dumbfounded.
He suddenly felt embarrassed, and guilt flashed across his eyes.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to disturb your rest." He thought it was a special situation and he had to explain before it was too late. As he has explained himself then, he could see the tired expression on Ollie's face. Although he felt sorry for disturbing her from resting, he did not regret his action. He reached out and touched her fair forehead.
"Go sleep now. I won't talk anymore. Don't worry." She closed her eyes. Her heart ached. She was still physically exhausted but her sleepiness was gone then.
All she could think of were the words Sam had told her.
The decision she had made initially just crumbled underneath his gaze and with his sincere words.
She was unsure of what to do then.
Olivia was initially planning to stay in a confinement centre after delivery. However, Emma insisted that it would be better for her to take care of Ollie herself. After their discussion, Olivia finally decided to go hfor her confinement instead.
Emma had done her homework prior to her delivery so with her experience, she took great care of Olivia. On top of that, Brenda was around to help out as well. So, Olivia was taken care of very well throughout her confinement period, and she was getting better day by day. She didn't even have to look after the baby. Food was already prepared by the tshe woke up and she could sleep anytshe felt sleepy. The confinement was great for her.
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmThe only thing left was that the knot in her heart.
Hence, she was in a gloomy mood most of the time.
As Olivia's mother, Brenda immediately knew there was something off about her daughter's emotions. Thus, she found a day when Emma wasn't around and took the opportunity to sit her down to talk to her.
"You've been unhappy recently and your mood has been unstable. Could it be postpartum depression?" Olivia shook her head. "No." "Is it not postpartum depression? Does that mean that you have been feeling like this even before delivery?"
"Mom." Olivia looked out of the window with a distant expression, "When you went to ask the fortune teller about Sam and I, did the fortune teller say that we would have a bad ending?" Mentioning that, Brenda was regretful as she said, "Ollie, let it go. I have already apologized to you back then, so don't be angry with me, okay? This is all my fault. Besides, there is no such thing as fortune telling. If fortune telling is indeed accurate, he could have just told his own fortune and not have to work anymore." Olivia smiled faintly but her smile did not seem sincere.
"Somehow, I think what he said was true." Hearing that, Brenda's expression changed abruptly immediately, and she grabbed her hand in a panic.
"Ollie, you are scaring me. How can you say such nonsense?"
"Mom, what are you so worried about?" Olivia patted her hand helplessly. "I just don't think that fortune telling is complete bullsh*t, anyway. Lam sure that he would try to do a good job since he was paid. With everything said, nobody knows what's going to happen until the end. You also don't have to worry about what he said regarding us going to either separate while we are still alive, or be parted by death. At most, we would only be separated while we are still alive." She was not planning on committing suicide.
Brenda had a bad feeling when she heard what she had said. As she recalled the things that had happened in the past few weeks, she couldn't help feeling that something was strange.
Generally, mothers loved their children a lot, and would be happy to spend more twith their newborn.
However, for that period of time, Olivia had never carried her child. She barely even looked at her child At first, Brenda thought that she might be tired or scared, but she understood then that she had refused to spend more twith her newborn because.... X