Chapter 0043 REAGAN'S POV.
A foolish smile forms on my face when I recall the dumbfounded look on Ashanti's face when I flipped her to the floor after she tried to attackunaware. She wasn't expectingto take her off guard. Our interaction today was electrifying and it has leftwanting more of her.
All of that has still not been able to put my mind at rest. For days now I have been thinking about what I can do to separate her from Kyle without making it look too obvious that I'm doing it out of jealousy. Walking her to and back from training. Tying her hair in a ponytail. Showing up at the lounge every night she has to serve men so he will be the one she gets to serve. Being extremely nice to her. I scoff.
He's got feelings for Ashanti and he's not hiding it. I'm sure by now, she knows and what's going to happen next? He's going to ask her out and soon, they'll be a couple.
That will only happen over my dead body.
"Jared!" I call at the top of my voice and immediately, my office door veers open and one of the soldiers stationed at my door walks in with his head bowed down.
"Alpha Reagan, you called." "Getthe s**t who is in charge of making the list of girls to serve the soldiers tonight." "Yes, Alpha." He exits the office. Once the door closes behind him, I rise to my feet and head to the floor to ceiling transparent glass window that givesa view of the city beneath. My hands are tucked in my pockets as I look at the busy streets below. I'm like a giant looking down at ants and ironically, that's how they all see me. Their giant. Their Alpha. Their Lord.
And if they know I've found their Luna. The she- wolf who's going to bear their heir, my respect will double, but I'm not ready for all that yet. I'm not ready for any commitments that's going to throw my way. I shut my eyes and sigh heavily. There's not a moment I'm not thinking about Ashanti. Her face keeps cropping up and even though it frustratesbig time, spart ofdoesn't want to wish away the thoughts of her.
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtThis girl is destroying me! The sound of approaching footsteps jabsout of my thoughts. It has to be the s**t I sent for. "Alpha Reagan. You asked to see me." "I need you to put Ashanti's non the list of girls to serve at the lounge tonight. I'll be in attendance." My eyes are still looking down at the busy streets as I speak. I don't intend to spare her a glance. "That will be done immediately." "In the meantime, sendd'girl." "As you wish, My Lord." "That will be all." "Thank you, My Lord." Her retreating footsteps. echo in my ears and it's until the door closes behind her that I turn around.
My own words replay in my mind..
"Senda girl." I cringe.
It sounds unpleasant, but it's what I need. I need to be with another girl so I can stop thinking about Ashanti all day. She's drivingcrazy without even trying.
She's beautiful, smart and a resilient fighter. And, the way she interacts with her colleagues shows she has a good heart. Those are qualities of a good Luna. She will make the perfect Luna. I'm very well aware of that, but I'm not going to accept her.
I'm not ready to accept her.
Even if she raids my mind from now till tomorrow, she won't makedo what I'm not ready to do.
Minutes go by and I'm getting impatient waiting for the girl I asked for to show up. I'm about to mind -link Jared again, but a knock on the door stops me. It creaks open, revealing a tall, slender, young girl, dressed in a scanty outfit. She walks into the office with a seductive smile plastered on her face.
"I have cto serve you however you want, Alpha." Even her voice is a weapon of mass seduction, but instead of enticing me, it grates on my nerves. I swallow my irritation and give her a serious look. I have to do this for myself.
I need to get Ashanti out of my mind for now and this is the best way forto do it.
"You know what to do." My voice is as cold as ice. The smile stays on her face as she slowly strips out of her dress, her eyes not leaving my face. My eyes drop with her clothes and I breathe hard before dragging my eyes back to her naked body.
She's perfect.
Full breasts, with tear drop nipples that point straight at me, invitingto csuck them. A/ tiny waist line that continues down to her hips and then her thighs and between those thighs... that thing that's going to makeforget all about Ashanti.
"How do you wantto give it to you?" I hate the ones who ask questions. Who talks at all.
I reluctantly rise to my feet and I take calculated steps towards her. Her naked body is supposed to trigger a response from me. Like blood rushing to my c**k, to make it hard. Likelonging to lay my hands on her breasts and squeezing them. But there's nothing. No pull. No triggers.
I feel like I'm looking at a pet I have no interest in keeping.
Now, our bodies are almost touching. I can feel the heat radiation from her body. She's beaming up at me. She can't wait to finally havetouch her.
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Calmly, carefully, I stretch my right hand forward, aiming for her jaw and she shuts her eyes close, preparing er eyes! for my touch which never happens because I stop midway and retract my hand, dropping it back by my side. I can't bring myself to touch another girl.
I shut my eyes and exhale heavily. All I can see is Ashanti. Even with my eyes closed. Her charming smile, her angelic voice when she speaks laughs. The cute frown on her face when things aren't going her way. The mortified look she had when I announced I was going to have a duel with her. The feel of her body in my hands when we had the duel and the thankful look in her eyes when she realised I had saved her from having a very serious head injury, even though she never voiced it out. Ashanti.
My mate.
I take several steps away from the naked girl.
I can't do this.
"Alpha, is there something wrong?" "Get out." I ordered. Confusion and disappointment spreads on her face.
"But I..." "Now!" I rudely cut her off. My voice is as hard as granite. The girl senses danger, so she picks up her clothes and rushes out of the office, still naked.
Guilt pangs in my heart but I shove it aside and march to the table where I pick up the glass of whiskey was drinking from a while ago. Something snaps in my head when I get a whiff of the strong whiskey smell. A loud howl vibrates out of my chest as I throw the glass against the floor, breathing hard. It shatters into several pieces on the floor and droplets of the whiskey it contained fly all over.
The fact that I don't want to accept Ashanti doesn't mean I want another man to have her.
I will never let Kyle be with her! X